For Jon

I want to paint
I grab a pen.
I want control
I binge.
My blood's so hot.
My feet are cold.
Alarm screams,
I sleep in.

I want morning.
I want night.
I must run.
I need rest.
I could be wrong.
I think I'm right.
I'm joyful and
depressed.

I need to travel.
I long for home.
I'm quiet and
I speak.
I need to hug
and be alone.
I question.
I believe.

I make, I touch
I rush, I hum,
I chew, I sing,
I dress.
I write, I laugh,
I play, I strum,
I talk, I think,
I rest.

I say I will,
but then I won't.
I'm honest
but that's not true.
There's just one thing
that I'm sure of -
I am in love with you.